=/ A few days ago I had another of those the one dreams. And. I saw his face. Finally after so many months of having those dreams. And. I recognize him. Its Dave. One of my close online friends. =.= I told it to another online friend who was also inside the clique and he was laughing his ass off.

But those dreams keep coming. Last night, I didn't dream of Dave but I dreamt of being with two different people. One of them is Michael, the other one I'm embarrassed to say.

I wish those dreams would stop. Today I woke up at 2pm because I was determinded to try to figure out what those dreams meant by continuing them. They freak me out and they haunt me and I feel soooo guilty around Chris because I've been dreaming of the one who is not him.



Today is the second day of the IT fair. I'm going tomorrow to maybe get the desktop that I've been longing for. See how it goes. Later I'll be going to service so its gonna be crowded at Expo =/

A friend from Cabal was featured in a website. lol. Take a look at it here.

His name is Tay Jun Yang but we call him Zach. Heh cool right ;) he got a wine scholarship and doing very well now.

Okay you know what, I made a mistake thinking that two different people were one person.

The one who had the lead in Forgetting Sarah Marshall was not Vanessa Hudgens but Mila Kunis. But they look the same can.







The first is Vanessa Hudgens, the second is Mila Kunis.

Em.. Actually, yeah they look a little different xD I found the show on MegaVideo. LoL!


Quotes from the show

Matthew - waiter
Peter Bretter - came to Hawaii to forget ex gf who was also there
Kemo - works for the hotel
Sarah Marshall - Peter's ex girlfriend
Aldous Snow - Sarah's new boyfriend


Matthew: Hey, how's it going?
Peter Bretter: Hey, I'd like to grab some dinner, please.
Matthew: Okay, great. Is your wife gonna meet you?
Peter Bretter: No.
Matthew: Your girlfriend?
Peter Bretter: No, I don't have a girlfriend, so...
Matthew: [confused] You're just by yourself?
Peter Bretter: Yeah.
Matthew: Sucks. Okay, so just one. Here's your wine list, your menu, come on. You want, like, a magazine or something? It's gonna be boring if you're just sitting by yourself.
Peter Bretter: No, I'll be alright. Thank you.
Matthew: I would just be *so* depressed.


Kemo: [after Peter kills the luau pig] You can stop crying now. He's dead already.
Peter Bretter: I'm not crying. *You* should stop crying.
Kemo: I don't cry. I'm not a baby.
Peter Bretter: Really? Because you look like a gigantic baby. I'm sorry, I didn't mean that at all.


Sarah Marshall: When were you planning on telling me this?
Aldous Snow: I just told you, then.
Sarah Marshall: Yeah. No, I know. But telling me now isn't really the same as telling me.
Aldous Snow: Well, look, you know, I've not told you I've got genital herpes, because it's not inflamed at the moment...


Aldous Snow: [holding a single sandal] I've lost a shoe... have you seen it anywhere? Excuse me, missus, I've lost a shoe... like this one. It's like this one's fellow... it's sort of the exact opposite in fact of that - not an evil version but just, you know, a shoe like this... but for the other foot. Otherwise I'd have two right...

Heh. Had yogurt for breakfast.

I have class later today at 7pm. And its the lecturer with the bore-your-brains out teaching technique.

I'm officially a victim of triangulation. It means being stuck between two people. My mom doesnt want to make things hard to me so she gives in which makes me feel so guilty. Haiz.

And the Garlie didnt come out!!!!! There was maintenance on Tuesday alright, but its not for a cash shop update! $%^&* and it has followed a pattern since Cabal came out. Liew.. Of all the times to break the pattern.. My garlie T.T

Eating has become a chore for me. Unless there's nice food and I feel like eating. Eating takes up time and money. I wouldn't mind giving up pasta cuz it'll probably save me loads.

Heh tomorrow Cabal will most probably have a cash shop update and there'll be the pet I'm waiting for ~~~ GARLIE !!

Its cute, right? Best of all its one of the cheapest pets so I won't waste money. Well, not that much anyway.

Lol ... Hooked on Vanessa Hudgens these days. I like her songs plus she's an actor too. She acted in the High School Musical series and also in the show Getting over Sarah Marshalls which is uber funny. Waiting for the DVD to be out so I can rent it lol..

After listening to Colors of the Wind I really feel like watching Disney shows! And that includes Pocahontas and Beauty and the Beast thanks to Sher lol .. But hey, dont laugh. Disney shows are classic okay. People of all ages can enjoy them.

Ah.. Dont even know if my mom keeps the shows from years ago.. They probably cant play anyway.

I didn't go for service last Saturday, with extreme apologies to Bryan. I wasn't feeling well and the worst part is I totally forgot that last Saturday was the first weekend of Asia Conference! Lots of renowed speakers were there. But still there's this week's one to look forward to, especially with Michael playing with the Strikeforce.

Bryan dont worry I'll definitely be there this weekend ;)

OK.. Another weird dream about "the one"..

And if you did read my previous posts, they arent about Chris. This one wasn't any different.

Okay so... I apparently met this guy.. And we sorta knew that we were gonna end up together. As in, together forever, that sorta thing.

We got into a big car and that's when I realised ... that he had made a mistake by agreeing to marry another girl before he met me, who was uber ugly by the way. I guess it meant her personality. I didnt want to let him go because, well, he's my happiness. He left with the girl when we got out of the car. But I knew he still loved me.

I followed him. Trying to get him back. I really didn't want to lose him, and in the dream it was signified by losing him physically. Then suddenly my younger sis shouted to me that Frostee got away from her and was running amuck. So lol.. -.-

I didn't want to lose sight of the guy, but I knew I had to get the dog back before he got hurt. I took a last glance at that wonderful guy and went off after Frostee. I got him back, but lost that guy. I couldn't find him again.


When I woke up, I desperately tried to get back to sleep. I wanted to know if I found him. I couldn't =( I saw Frostee in my room and I actually said to him, "if only you knew what you cost me".


I keep dreaming of the guy. The one. And I just know subconsciously in my dream that its not Chris... I feel so confused and disturbed by all those dreams. And if I really do go back to the theory of the subconscious, it means God's trying to tell me something and the reason those dreams keep coming back its because I don't get it or I don't do anything about it. So those dreams are like a reminder.

But.. If I really were to follow that theory, I'll lose Chris. And is that something I want to do?

Heh.. Chris got his license the day before yesterday. To celebrate he took me out for lunch at SeoulYummy! And it really is Seoul Yummy. Lol..

The food there is delicious. We had the Korean side dishes including kimchi and coleslaw; kimchi soup; hot plate beef and potato pancake!! I first had the potato pancake when I lunched there with Jon. And after that I craved for it like mad. It really is much nicer than the alternative kimchi dumplings.

We also had the newly added Korean dessert Chocolate smoothie with frozen yogurt! Well I didnt really like it cuz I thought it'd be like chocolate milkshake with the yogurt as topping but it was pure cocoa instead. Tasted like coffee.

Lol ... The food there is really nice.. And the waitress is Korean. She speaks english so well ~

Oh yes, and he drove us there and back ^^ he'd borrowed my dad's second car ( no way my dad'll lend him his Merc ). I thought it'd be fine and I was excited to be his first passenger, but as he fiddled with the inside of the car to get used to it, fear sank in.

Esp after my mom told me that if he wanted to use the car he had to be extra careful, because he isnt seasoned and she hasnt bought insurance for him. The fear really kicked in after about 5 mins. It really was scary to be the front seat passenger of a fresh graduate.

But in the end all's well that ends well. Lol.. Looking forward to eat at SeoulYummy again ~


I had a dream last night of Michael. We and Ken were looking for the cg in the hall. Then I lose my phone again and I was emo-ing thruout the service and leaning on Mike's shoulder. Rofl. I hope it doesnt come true though. The phone has already set me back $200 and I'm really struggling to get thru the rest of the month.

God help me, its still 2 weeks to go T.T

Pocahontas - Colors Of The Wind Lyrics


You think I'm an ignorant savage
And you've been so many places
I guess it must be so
But still I cannot see
If the savage one is me
How can there be so much that you don't know?
You don't know ...

You think you own whatever land you land on
The Earth is just a dead thing you can claim
But I know every rock and tree and creature
Has a life, has a spirit, has a name

You think the only people who are people
Are the people who look and think like you
But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger
You'll learn things you never knew you never knew

Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
Or asked the grinning bobcat why he grinned?
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountains?
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind?
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind?

Come run the hidden pine trails of the forest
Come taste the sunsweet berries of the Earth
Come roll in all the riches all around you
And for once, never wonder what they're worth

The rainstorm and the river are my brothers
The heron and the otter are my friends
And we are all connected to each other
In a circle, in a hoop that never ends

How high will the sycamore grow?
If you cut it down, then you'll never know
And you'll never hear the wolf cry to the blue corn moon

For whether we are white or copper skinned
We need to sing with all the voices of the mountains
We need to paint with all the colors of the wind

You can own the Earth and still
All you'll own is Earth until
You can paint with all the colors of the wind



I think this is one of the best written songs in history.
Who can teach me how to put mp3 into the blog?

Hmm okay..

On Saturday I went for service with Bryan as usual. We had a guest speaker: Dr Ed Silvoso. Last time he spoke at the FOP but I couldn't really catch what he was saying because of his accent. But now I guess by the grace of God I understood every word he was saying =)

Afterwards we went to Popeyes!!!! Haha.. At T3 this time. But I tell you the food wasn't as good as T1. The chicken smelled and tasted burnt, and so did the fries. But the mashed potato was fine xD Michael.. This Saturday we go again haha..

Sunday was uneventful as Chris and I spent the day at home together. He was off until this Wednesday. I doubt we'll go do anything like watch a movie or even go for a dinner because of monies.. lolx..


I love Korean food so. Ever since that Korean drama craze, I've been wanting to eat Korean food every now and then. Seoul Yummy at Novena Square 2 has nice Korean food that's affordable. And the food there is great too.

I went out with my mom that day to get my SIM card, and bought some kimchi back. 2 packets was already SD$18.80. Heh, not something we can eat everyday ...

Wish I lived in Korea.. I'd be like a mouse living in a cheese factory lolol.. By then, I'll be fat before you can say "anniyosaeyo".

I have a horrendous piece of extremely bad news.


BK has ended its promotion of TENDERGRILL!!!!!!


Omg NUUUUUU...

=(

Hai. Okay. Just as well. I couldn't really afford to keep eating it anyway.

I've class later on. 3 solid hours of boredom.

I went out with my mom today to Plaza Singapura. She wanted to go there to buy Christmas lights so I tagged along to get my SIM card from Starhub. So yes, you can contact me at my old number.

Walked for goodness how long. I bought some snacks and kimchi at Carrefour. Lolx.. Chris made lovely kimchi fried rice for dinner. Getting fat already la..

You know at service on Saturday I really wished that Chris was there beside me. I dont know what he has against City Harvest. But as my mom said, it doesnt matter which church, as long as he goes back to God.


Haiz I'm like so stressed over finances. I don't even know if I'll have enough for food, transport etc. How did I end up paying for two people.

Okay... I went to buy a new phone today. I wanted a second hand one but couldn't find one open so late. In the end went to Mustafa and bought E241. Its a so-so phone. Just temporary till I can afford a better one. There goes my savings for this month.

Chris said he's gonna buy me a new phone come December. Lolx. My birthday-cum-Christmas present.

Haven't went down to Starhub to get back my number because my dad was just being impossible. I wrote the letter of authorization for him to sign and he still made so many comments. First was my ugly handwriting, second was no date and recipient, third was I had only used half the page and I was wasting money.

I just stormed out of his room and didn't even ask for his IC. Dunno what's eating him. But well I guess I have to type out another authorization letter that he'd be satisfied with.

So for now, I'm using Chris' old number. 91665438. Anything just contact me there till I get my SIM card.

I just called my mom to tell her to cancel my phone line.

I told her, "plz cancel my line for starhub cuz I lost it". Then there was silence. About 10 seconds. I was like, oh crap.

Then she whispered into the phone, "first time u go out then u lost your phone?!" I think my dad was there so she wanted to save my hide.

LoLx. Her reaction was ROFLMAO funny. hahax.... I do feel guilty though. Wonder how I am gonna get by w/o a phone for the next few days. The weekdays are fine, but for Saturday and Sunday I really need it.

Heh she called back. She said it wasn't the point that the phone was $0 with the plan and it was alr quite old. She said its the $18 she had to pay to get the sim card back. -___________- she said she bu she de..

Oh well I just have to figure out how to meet Bryan later.

Okay. GG. TODAY IS FULL OF DISAPPOINTMENT.

I lost my hp in the bus on the way home after cell group. But you know I'm over it. I saw it as a a futile attempt by the devil to discourage me from going to church. Its all about the mind.

"Men are disturbed not by things, but by the view which they take of them"
- Epicteus


Anyway what I'm most UPSET and DISAPPOINTED at is the oh so very cruel joke that Isabelle and Michael played on me.

Guys!!!! I really believed you!! And I was sincerely pleasantly surprised and happy for you!

Grr.

But Michael I got to hand it to your acting skills. It was truly as if it were real. Which made the truth harder to bear. Lolx.. Belle u can ask him.. I kept badgering him on the same sub lolx.. Until I realised I lost my phone which made me even more upset.

I have to get a temporary phone now. I was surfing thru the major phone brands websites looking for a not-so-old model that I can use temporarily ( I just dont have the budget for a recently launched phone).

I decided on samsung Z240 cuz I really like that phone since it came out. But aiya.. see how it goes.. It was a really stupid and careless thing to have lost my phone. Its not a wise move to spend money now since I have to reimburse my savings acct.

Oh man tell me what to do~!!!